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Arthouse · Drama

First Reformed

A film that treats despair as physiology, not psychology — and demands you sit with it, unblinking.

Paul Schrader’s First Reformed follows Reverend Ernst Toller, a pastor of a dwindling Dutch Reformed church in upstate New York, as he confronts alcoholism, grief over his son’s death in Iraq, and escalating despair over climate catastrophe. When a pregnant parishioner seeks counsel for her radical-environmentalist husband, Toller is drawn into a crisis of faith, vocation, and bodily integrity. Shot in strict 1.33:1 aspect ratio with austere compositions and near-silent sound design, the film unfolds with liturgical slowness, building toward a climax that rejects catharsis in favour of raw, unresolved human contact.

Chapters & takeaways7
  1. 0:08
    The look of it

    It is built to be watched, not scanned — every frame calibrated for weight, not decoration.

  2. 1:51
    The weight of it

    Performance and craft serve a single principle: nothing must distract from the pressure of being alive in a broken world.

  3. 3:43
    The pace of it

    Its power comes not from what happens, but from how long it takes to happen — and how little relief it offers along the way.

  4. 5:34
    The terms of it

    It assumes you know the references, speak the language, and accept that some wounds have no narrative salve.

  5. 7:26
    The body of it

    It treats climate grief and spiritual crisis not as ideas to debate, but as conditions to inhabit — physically, hourly.

  6. 9:17
    The demand of it

    It asks for your full attention, then refuses to reward it with ease — and that refusal is the point.

  7. 11:09
    The use of it

    Its worth is not in what it gives you, but in what it holds you to — still, alert, unsettled.

Worth your time?

Yes. Watch the whole thing.

4.5/ 5
What works
  • its formal rigour, Ethan Hawke’s restrained performance, the embodied treatment of despair
  • the way silence and composition carry theological weight
What does not
  • those who need narrative momentum or emotional resolution
Watch it if
  • viewers who treat cinema as contemplative practice
Skip it if
  • those who read stillness as emptiness
The written brief6 min read

The look of it

First Reformed is a tightly wound theological thriller built on the architecture of crisis: a dying church, a failing body, a collapsing world. Paul Schrader writes and directs it as an act of formal discipline — a deliberate return to the ascetic style he theorised in Transcendental Style in Film, echoing Bresson, Dreyer and Ozu. It is not trying to explain climate grief or ministerial doubt through exposition, but to embody them in duration, silence, and vertical composition. The 1.33:1 aspect ratio compresses space, forcing attention onto faces and hands; the camera rarely moves, and when it does, it glides with ritual gravity. Schrader’s script avoids psychological realism in favour of liturgical pacing: dialogue is sparse, declarative, often delivered straight to camera or into journal pages. This is not a film about solving problems but about sustaining tension — between faith and despair, stewardship and surrender, vocation and void. Its ambition is structural and spiritual: to make transcendence feel like a physical pressure, not a metaphysical relief. It asks whether conviction can survive without certainty — and whether action remains possible when every option feels like complicity. (158 words)

The weight of it

Ethan Hawke carries the film with a performance that refuses catharsis: his Reverend Toller breathes shallowly, speaks in clipped cadences, and moves as if carrying unseen weight. Amanda Seyfried matches him in stillness, her Mary radiating quiet exhaustion rather than melodrama. Michael Gaston’s Edward Balq is all polished evasion, Cedric the Entertainer’s Pastor Jeff a study in performative benevolence. Lustmord’s score is near-inaudible for long stretches — low-frequency hums and silences that thicken the air. The production design is austere: the First Reformed Church interior is stripped of ornament, its pews empty except for dust motes caught in shafts of light. Cinematographer Alexander Dynan keeps frames rigid and central, the camera locked off unless a slow push-in signals moral or physical proximity. Editing by Affonso Gonçalves uses abrupt cuts only at moments of rupture — a text message arriving, a door closing, a glass lifting to lips. Every craft choice serves restraint: no music swells, no close-up lingers too long, no line of dialogue explains what the image already holds. Even the suicide vest appears without fanfare — folded, then placed, then forgotten until it isn’t. (159 words)

The pace of it

What lands is the cumulative weight of withheld release. The film’s power builds not through plot turns but through the erosion of Toller’s composure: a tremor in his hand while pouring coffee, a pause before answering a question, the way he blinks slowly when confronted with Balq’s corporate piety. The barbed-wire sequence works because it arrives after ninety minutes of suppressed gesture — the violence of the act is in its sudden, unexplained physicality, not its symbolism. The final embrace with Mary lands not as resolution but as interruption: a human touch breaking the logic of self-annihilation. Schrader’s decision to shoot in Brooklyn and Queens but frame them as upstate New York gives the landscape a bleached, timeless quality — industrial decay made sacred by composition. The journal device avoids voiceover exposition; instead, we see Toller write, tear pages, rewrite, cross out — thought as labour, not revelation. Even the chemical drain cleaner feels earned: not as shock, but as the logical terminus of a man who has spent his life measuring sin in millilitres and grace in minutes. The film’s austerity never feels like avoidance — it feels like fidelity to a worldview where meaning is not found, but endured. (157 words)

The terms of it

What does not land is the film’s reliance on allusion without integration. References to Diary of a Country Priest and Winter Light are structural scaffolding, not narrative fuel — they sit outside the film rather than within it, legible only to those who recognise them. The theological vocabulary — ‘cloud of unknowing’, ‘stewardship’, ‘vocation’ — remains abstract, never grounded in lived practice beyond Toller’s private reading. Michael’s environmental despair is compelling but under-contextualised: his research, his radicalism, even his suicide vest lack texture beyond function — they exist to provoke Toller, not to breathe as characters. The Abundant Life megachurch feels like a caricature of American evangelicalism, its theology reduced to branding and budget lines. Some viewers will find the pacing oppressive rather than immersive — the 108-minute runtime contains no scene that speeds up, no cut that relieves tension, no moment that allows the viewer to exhale. That is intentional, but it also means the film offers no foothold for those who do not share its terms of engagement. Its rigour becomes exclusionary: it assumes familiarity with both cinematic minimalism and Protestant existentialism, and does not trouble itself to initiate the uninitiated. (159 words)

The body of it

The themes that matter are not climate change as policy or theology as doctrine, but climate change as embodiment — a condition that reshapes breath, appetite, sleep, and time. Toller’s stomach pain, his insomnia, his aversion to food: these are not symptoms of illness but of ontological dissonance. The film treats environmental collapse not as a future threat but as a present metabolic fact — something that lives in the gut, not the headlines. Equally urgent is its interrogation of vocation: what remains of calling when the institution you serve has hollowed itself out, when your own history is complicit in violence, and when every act of witness feels like participation in spectacle? The semiquincentennial service is not just irony — it is the logical endpoint of institutional survivalism, where commemoration replaces conviction. Schrader locates the crisis not in grand pronouncements but in small failures of attention: Toller scrolling past news headlines, Mary staring blankly at a pregnancy scan, Balq naming carbon reduction targets while gesturing to a polluted river. These are not political arguments but phenomenological ones — about how despair settles in the body, and how hope, if it exists, must begin there. (156 words)

The demand of it

This film is for viewers who treat cinema as contemplation, not consumption — those who can sit with silence, tolerate ambiguity, and accept that some questions are posed not to be answered but to be inhabited. It suits people familiar with Bresson or Dreyer, or those willing to meet formal austerity on its own terms. It is not for viewers who require narrative propulsion, emotional payoff, or character arcs that resolve. Those who expect climate fiction to offer solutions, or religious drama to affirm faith, will find it withholding. Those who read theology as comfort rather than confrontation may mistake its rigour for nihilism. Its refusal to dramatise Michael’s activism or unpack Balq’s empire means it assumes a baseline of political literacy — not as ideology, but as lived awareness of how power operates in plain sight. A viewer who needs explanation, who prefers warmth over precision, or who finds stillness indistinguishable from stasis, will leave unrewarded. The film does not ask for empathy — it demands endurance. That distinction matters. (158 words)

The use of it

Yes, it is worth your evening — but only if you arrive prepared to hold still. Its value lies not in entertainment but in recalibration: it slows perception, sharpens attention to gesture and silence, and makes ethical urgency feel tactile. It is not a film to watch while distracted, nor one to consume in fragments — its power depends on sustained attention across its full 108 minutes. Those who dismiss it as ‘cold’ or ‘dour’ are not wrong about its temperature, but they misread its intent: this is not emotional deprivation, but emotional economy. Its admirers include critics who prize formal control and thematic density; its detractors tend to cite its rigidity or perceived didacticism — though the film avoids direct argument, preferring implication. What would change the verdict? A shorter runtime would break its logic; more exposition would dilute its force. Its worth is inseparable from its method. To ask whether it is ‘enjoyable’ is to misunderstand its contract. It is not meant to be enjoyed. It is meant to be endured — and in that endurance, felt. (159 words)

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